The other day I was contemplating why blogging has become so difficult for me to do. I did a mental check list just to check in on myself to see how I was doing and everything seemed to be ok. Was my marriage relationship doing well? Yeah. Do I feel like I am meeting my kids needs as best I can? I try every day. How was I doing spiritually? Well I’m still not going to church yet but I’m making an effort at home with zoom church, scriptures, prayer, etc. How was my home? As clean as I can keep it daily with 3 home schooled kids, a puppy, and making sure I gave myself some mental me time before sleep… I even checked the energy of my living space and it felt like a happy, busy, calm.
Then what was the problem? I do enjoy reading… But that wasn’t the problem. I made time to call and text family and friends regularly just to check in… But that wasn’t taking up all my free time either…
And then it hit me. Everything I do all the time was multitasked. Yes, I do mean everything. Making food? Yep. Eating food!? Uh yeah, when do you think I fit in my scriptures or fun reading. Bathroom time? Yeah… My oldest can unlock those door locks magically, so my middle child sometimes tries to catch me then to help him with his school work or just to catch me up on his favorite Pokémon animal.
I promise, I try to teach my kids that bathroom time is alone time. They’ve all figured it out on their side of the privacy door. None of them want unwanted guests when they close that door from inside.
And yes, I’m multitasking even while I’m sleeping. My 3 year old finds her way into my bed 6/7 nights a week. So even while I’m trying to catch a few winks I’m holding, moving, or shoving my youngest threw an awkward waltz around my sheets.
So that is why blogging has become so difficult since this pandemic came through and flipped everything and everyone upside down or at least sideways. Blogging is the one thing that I cannot multitask. I have to get into a mindset when I’m writing, I like to have a rhythm in my thinking and typing, and I can’t do that while my oldest wants to show me his super cool drawings, or when my middle child wants to explain his favorite super powers to me.
I love being a mom, I love being a spouse, I love homeschooling, and I love writing my blog. I guess I just need to figure out a new balance to make it all fit, ya know?
How do you fit in your writing time? Or your “me time”?